ただいま

Et voila je suis chez moi! Staying in my comfortable room, brushing my teeth with my electric oralB tooth brush, warm, with a blank head. Thinking out loud what are on schedule today.

The last 2 weeks passed so fast, like a dream. Especially in Paris, where i get to buy stuff and wander around to point a to point b. I lost my interest to take picture because i wanna have a taste a parisienne life, although not close to a real one; however i felt that if you have unlimited spending money, (in another word rich la hahah, just liking the irony of unlimited) dreaming to have overrated price haut couture, like to eat  fresh moule, noix st-jacques, duck, foie-gras, oh and of course wineeeee, you must like france. I haven’t explored France thoroughly, i can envision myself going back again because i love shopping and the taste of magret de canard.

Now back to Canada, with stuff i learn in the past 3 months, i’m gonna re-vivre things i miss with my family, boyfriends and friends. As for myself, i have 3 projects which i commit to accomplish. Stay tune, there are more to tell!

about baby

i’m happy to know that two bloggers became mom. This is a stage that seems so far for me. Nonetheless, i enjoyed reading their story; they blog about their raising baby experience as well as their attitude to life. I respect their spirit and effort, it is something that i would like to do in my future.

心事

我發現：

+ 太多為恐天下不亂的人．e.g my aunt, my boss
+ 原來一直而來太過訓利
+ 每晚食方飽不是一件難的是。寡？加Ｄmousse de canard 會好食Ｄ！（這是住一個星期hotel的經驗）
+ 是的，我第一日食了兩餐french pizza, 所為frenchi pizza, 就是一塊好普通既底餅，加上一些不知所為既topping。e.g. duck, beef, crevette. Really, 好n’importe de quoi.

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noon, the programmer talked to me in regard of my futur plan; i told him what my goals was. He seems very optimistic about my future, by taking account that i speak 5 languages and i could easily get a job in big company in France.
I thank him for proposing the possibilities of venue i could take.
but, i still want to enroll myself in the field of graphic design, print, web, packaging.

in 5 years, i see myself getting married, have succeeded spoken japanese fluently.
striving my life to get more money, maybe failed many times, but still on a track.
by that time, i will be an online shop owner, i design my website and product. I will be still learning how to bargain, i will get better than 5 years ago.

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Last night, was on my dose of blog reading. I came across this quote for G, elle mas monte la morale since what happend lately, i want to share with you. Here you go:

Dont let yourself occupied by << being right>> there is no such things called right or wrong or mistake. There is just Process.  or what you like or dislike at a particular moment or a certain period of time.

Learn through making things, its easy to talk people out of idea. Even history is just different ideaology perspectives to the same event. It will be shame of you to give up.

And i add: use your talent, you’ve got a lot!

work

talk about work. I wrote about it at the beginning of my stage, i felt very excited everyday cuz i learn so much stuff. now, reaching the last week, i actually feel very upset my bosses. My female boss is just like my mom, when she is nice she could be mother theresa, and when the card flips, holly cow, a total meanie!

With that being said, i don’t see why she is upset. Since i do my job right, yes i take my time, but so what, i’m just an intern.
Maybe she is unbalanced by the fact that she paid me for the hotel for one week long. Anyhow, i really don’t give a fuck. I was very depressed after work cuz i was trying to understsand what she wants for the website, and she can’t figure out but upset at me. I mean c’mon, who the hell on earth knows what you want except yourself. one word=TROUBLESOME

If this is what design is about, i still got a long way to learn. At school, i strive to make eye pleasant graphics; While I was doing freelance, i designed website that don’t neccessary pleased me but i managed to give it on time; Now, during my internship stay, my goal was to make graphic design that please people who doesn’t know what proportion, color contrast, font choices is. All they know is to make their logo bigger, fondu photo, make the damn product picture big, big, big. fuck, the screen is full of garbages images.

okay, i finish explaining my dislikes about this stage. Only that there is 3 days left, i think i will survive.
By writing my frustration down, i realized it’s absolutely  useless to feel upset. Why?

nao得多，傷身嘛！

加上精神排毒後，個人開心晒！

expérience à la francais

ben yas pas trop de chose à dire à part mon travail, comme jai pas étais au plusieurs places, but indeed, i have had tremoudous feeling toward this 3 months internship/living alone/long period of reflexion/my lalala time…..

I finally understand why people dream to go  live in Paris; Living for instance is something different than visiting. Big métropole, stinky transportation, arrogant french, overrated beauty product such as parfume and make up. Myself, i learn how to cook properly; think thorougly; work faster; read fashion magazine, watch french television, most importantly to plan  and to envision my futur.

I am writing down stuff à voix haute, since i haven`t update my blog lately. i have been busy packing up my stuff and the stuff of the apartment i was living for three months. Cuz from Sunday on, i`m gonna stay in a hotel till the day i take off.  There is a pizza place downstair, i guess i am gonna visit them very often.

All in all, i cant wait to come back and spend some quality time with my bf and friends.

Since my budget is very tied, i`m gonna limit my spending in Paris. Cross my finger cuz, i`m very tempted  to buy certain truc. You know what………it starts with an L and ends with a V…..hahaha

SAfe me Jenny!!!!

bon, i`m gonna go take my laptop and the rest of the baggage to the little hotel then order some pizza, and finally, spend all my wonderful time in the world wide web.

à tout à l’heure!

two weeks lalala

Yes, i can`t wait.
I miss Montreal.
If not everything, 3/4, which includes foods, boyfriend and family.

recent update

I can`t find a better title for this post.

Yes, the first week of the year kinda past very slowly, cuz my two bosses went back home then left me with the programmer in the company.

It’s all good. Relaxed. I was so frustrated at myself because i didn`t come out something i like for a website. Like i said in the prevous post, i always change my mind about ideas.

Anyhow, i`m looking forward for Febuary. That’s when i will leave.

Got some meat today finally.
REady to cook something delicious, tonight.

I stayed up late today, because i want to catch up the episode i missed of Gossip Girl.

I don`t know why, i`m still thinking about the bag, the expensive bag.
Maybe i should abandon this thought…….wuwuwuw.

Have control of yourself.

*I would study mo Japaese vocab, especially listening. Yeah, cuz level2 doesn`t seem too easy.

beaucoup de truc pas assez espace

I encounter problem like this in my design process.
There is way too much information to put and i`m not comfortable yet with the space. I recognize the importance of grid system in design now.

I`m not very inspire lately, maybe because i`m too picky and lack of skill.

whos cooking tonight? meeeeeeee^.^

so my one week of christmas reserve is almost done. It was time to faire la course again. today i didnt`go to the far away Walmart size LeClerc, i went to the local store instead. I got myself 30 euro of food again, GOD! Esti que je mange beaucoup. if you think of it, its the equivalent of 45dollar. I told myself treat as a lesson for cooking, if i want to try to cook sth go for it do not withdraw yourself.
I made myself my favorite soup again, well, its the only soup i know how to make so far. (potato+tomato+chicken leg soup) Grâce the  little acident i made with the chicken leg at the first time, i boiled the leg in the water because i didn`t know how to make it cooked. So 20 minutes was still raw, i reboiled the next day, the inner part was still raw. so for the third time i decided to boil it for 30 minutes, and that is when i realized the water was surprisingly tasty, so i added potato and tomato in it. It tasted just like my mom did. O My god, i made my delicious soup! EMU totalement.

Tonight i was craving for rice and i really don`t wanna boiled uncle ben rice anymore. (i dislike the chewy texture of the long-grain rice.) I was craving for fried rice. So the result:

Rice with coquille st-jacques and some other sea food.

resolution for 2010

I just wanna write down i feel so blessed being in France.
Not only it is the opportunity for my design work, but also it has given the room to think and plan for the next step to come.

3 years ago, i planned for have a BFA in design. I did it and  loved it and now it’s time to take everything i learned into the next step. I felt so far in my life, i really didn`t have to work hard to get stuff i want. Unfortnately, life doesn`t work like this. The self-realization i made the last two days was really useful. I wrote down my resolution for next year. One of the main goal was to go back to work Asia. I always wanted to go back and reexperience my native culture. I know there will be a lot of obstacle but i`m willing to make the sacrifices. By making this statement, there is less brouillard, and the old  sinking goals seems to come back to the surface.

I realized the path i am taking is so different from my other friends.
Some started to settled for real estate other has start  their career in different field. I believe if i go back to Montreal, i will too, find a job and live happy after. But, i like to try to live in a different environment.

POint

jUST like the song i`m hearing: ”Y’ a un réverbère tout au fond de moi qui éclaire, chacun de mes pas.”

with this post, giving you